The faith issue is a big issue.

I do not believe in a God silly because others manipulated my life to make it miserable.

I want to believe in Him for His greatness and His love.

I want to believe in Him for His forgiveness and His answer to my injustice.

I want to believe in Him simply for who He is.

I do not believe in Him because of a lady’s love or because I am pressured due to the “perks” of being with the family.

If I am a fool, I want God to know that when I die, He will be there to receive me and to accept me before I join Him at His side.

And I want God to know that how hypocritical others are to me and if he is answering my thoughts (or prayers) justice should be there to serve my innocence. The day that it happens is the day I receive God.


Losing hope, faith and love.

I no longer have confidence and faith in what I know. I am tired of guessing and wish to move on but do not know how. I can’t love someone of a younger age without having the fear that other think that i will exploit her in future.

I wish I could assure everyone but the manipulation the scepticism and the cynicism is taking a toll on me. I can’t assure her the way I wish I could without putting on a mask to show that I am ok. I am grateful for everything and at the same time, also for nothing. I hate threats and I foresee I will continue to live with it.

I want to thank her for putting up with my un-smiley face and hope she can find her soulmate.

I think I was happier when i was hopeful and now that everything is revolving around my guessing, I do not know how to love and I wish the family and her all the best.



Blackmailing is a criminal behaviour

We should not encourage criminal behaviour by snooping on others’ lives and blackmailing them. Your ignorance contributes to their audacity of crime. The perpetrators’ ignorance, or lack of, is the root of their greed, ignorance and code of conduct. If hypocrisy has a face, it dons the mask of mass surveillance in the name of national security. My life is a victim of the oppressive authority and Edward Snowden is the willing victim of an unspoken crime done by the world’s most powerful people with the technology to ruin anyone’s life not in their scheme of things.

If democracy has any value, it is the freedom of expression to speak up against evil (for which ignorance is the root) and if freedom has any meaning, it is to be free from any prejudice and misgivings by those who do not share the same ideals but do not even respect the free will and power of the people.

Virtues can be taught and people need to practice these virtues to understand how others behave. It is not just virtues that provide a peaceful and meaningful life experience, it is also about a direction and an upbringing that will make you and your offsprings the participants of a world that is not feared by an unjust leader/leaders that are less competent to even conceive of any original innovation but even more incompetent to follow the moral guidance of our forefathers to set a good example for any citizens democracy had freed from oppression. As an agnostic, I do not think God wants you to snoop on others life so that you can make a moral judgement on them (for thou shalt not covert) or even to blackmail or coerce them into your scheme of things, let alone maintaining order with it. Order is a God-given right when we know that the leader has virtues (intellectual and moral) that speaks volume rather than snooping on your life to tell you that you are not worthy of a place in society simply because your ethics is not up to their standard and passing judgement unto you when they are not even divine themselves.

If the mobsters have organised crime in the past, this behaviour of snooping definitely contribute to an organised covert action against the privacy of the citizens to not guide them to paradise but instead to bring upon themselves the means of a rightful ruler that perhaps you did not vote for and might not even know how to equip yourself with the right knowledge to tell them what they are doing is not legal (internationally) and is causing unhappiness to those without the means of coverting. if they are happy to snoop in your life, they must be voyeurs that do not have any justified ethical values but will do all means to expose your life without even knowing what they stand for. If they stand up for any true moral values, they will be hypocritical to tell you that they are morally above you and you deserve to be punished without even standing trial – by manipulating your life without you evening knowing.

Edward Snowden is right. If the government wants to know how you are doing, asking is definitely cheaper than spying. For god’s sake, you are not the terrorists and the do-gooder are being ignorant about their own goodness and virtues – or at least, in the eyes of Edward Snowden, it is not right. You can change what you do not like but you can’t change every single person to just suit your life. Life revolves around truth and virtues and when life revolves around lies and deceptions, it is time to tell yourself that enough is enough. Do your best to be educated but most of all do your best not to be ignorant of evil.

Blackmailing is a criminal behaviour and once you give in to that, you are always a victim of oppression because you are coerced into doing something that violates your free will to induce a desired response. To be an accomplice of blackmailing is to accept bribery from the blackmailer to gain an unfair advantage to the victim and to control him with fear and malice manipulation. Educated means that you are being more knowledgable in life’s unknowns and should be an illuminating light to those who are ignorant, not to manipulate them into submission or to enslave them into your way of life.

Edward Snowden will not escape the law for what he have done but the public should judge for themselves what is just for him and the State. He should be given a fair trial and the public should also be speaking up against any oppression. Don’t be a victim of your life simply because you have lose your privacy to mass surveillance. Don’t be a victim of life because you are ignorant. Most importantly, do not be a criminal to others by snooping on others’  lives and blackmailing them.

honesty is the best policy

What you choose to hide from others are call subjective truths, but how you share them will become lies if you make up facts. Honesty is the best policy but when you snoop on others to ruin their lives, you are nothing but a criminal.

Good friendships are rare.

First of all I would like to inform everyone that I do not take the family’s love as their endorsement of my wisdom or intellectual virtues. With regards to moral virtues, I think no one will ever be perfect but we are, to our best ability, practice them so that they become second nature. Even so, the context are different in different cultures but in a multi-racial culture like Singapore, I think it is very subjective because the majority are Chinese.

Next with regards to the years of snooping of my life (and the manipulation and threats, not to mention also the humiliation), the intent was never revealed and the wisdom confined to the perspectives of the authorities (In Singapore, those with authority are the government and its subsidiaries, which include the media). To these people, I will only kow tow to their ignorance for they always failed to convince me of their wisdom as well as their antics (the ethics are also very subjective and open for debate). In addition, because of my perceived association with the family, I do not want to jeopardise my family and do not want to take advantage of the foolishness done by the authorities. If there is any end to their means, I wonder what other means they will have to get my support for their end. In all, whatever I have to say about life is in my book, the politics are different in different countries and the social landscape are also peculiar in different countries. The sensitivities and maturity are also subjective due to the different educational background and upbringings. I never needed their approval and neither do them need mine, hence I do not know what they are up to except to make me look insignificance to their existence.

I am not a big fan of mainstream media but also understand that creativity are subjective. I am definitely a critique of irrational behaviour and actions that failed to do for the greater good. This is not to say that we our rational abilities are restricted, but healthy fun is really respectful and open play.

I won’t be attempting to disclose what they have done or cover up but I will definitely be saying to them that good friendships are rare. And if good friendships are rare, I am also aware that I won’t be making use of them or exploiting their insecurities. If I am open to them and realise they are not as open then I will not be going against their will or make them change their minds about being liberal. I will certainly not be their enemies, because to me, they are their worst enemies (to each its own if you like).

Finally, there is a difference between personality and character. We may marry someone because they have great personalities but it is the similarity in character that will make the marriage a rewarding and fulfilling journey. Though marriage is between two people, we are bound to be attracted to people who have great personalities because they are the life of every social functions. In the long run, I believe it is those with good character that will make productive and positive relationships when similar we share similar moral values and virtues. Rarely does beauty and virtue go together and so is personality and character but to have the company of good character and virtues would be the joy and contentment of any; and to grow old with beauty, virtues, personality and character is truly a blessing and a great honour for someone like me.

love and devotion

Butterflies in the tummy the way Pooh loves honey.

In appreciation of my first payment of book publication.

Today I receive my first payment of SGD6.11. of the sale of my book, Post-punk Perception.

I wish to thank the readers who purchased them and hopefully they can benefit from the book. However, have the wisdom not to make enemies.

counting my blessing


Nothing on earth can make up for the loss of one who has loved you – Selma Lagerlöf.

Love your family and yourself, in this way no one (including your enemy) can disrupt the unity.

When is Hard the Good?

Life can be hard because wisdom is relative. Knowledge can be hard because intelligence is relative. Love can be hard because emotions are irrational. Truth can be hard because understanding requires acceptance. Discipline can be hard because a body at rest tend to stay at rest (this includes mental drag).

Where life is concern, knowledge, love, truth and discipline makes it hard to overcome life because every one of us are born not equal. When I mean not equal, I am referring to being born in different nationalities, different races, different family backgrounds, different intelligence and abilities. Hence our upbringing differs from country to country, culture to culture, family to family, and people to people.

So when is hard the good?

Hard is the good when we know the truth, have the discipline to follow the ethics to lead a virtuous life, having the courage to face adversity with love, developing wisdom in diversity and understanding that life is about the endless travels only to arrive at death – death can only be the most luxurious form of life when humans do not kill each other in wars, provided that we plan well ahead for that day. Life is being born, growing up with growing pains, falling sick and then finally death. If you are confident that you do not need healthcare because you eat moderately and nutritious, able to cope with stress well and exercises regularly to stay healthy, then death might not be the most luxurious form of life for you because you are lucky to die in your sleep (your heart just stop beating when you are old and feeble).

Hard is the Good when we know that wealth is an intermediate good so that we use it wisely and open-heartedly to benefit not just our loved ones but also those who need it more than us. Hard is the Good when we are poor materially but our souls are rich because our minds are filled with truths and knowledge to guide us to help those who are less capable than us and at the same time, aid those who are Good (with wealth and intelligence) to use wealth as an intermediate good so that we can create a better world that is inclusive of humans and nature.

Hard is the Good when we do not deny others of freedom and their human rights. Hard is the Good when we accept our limitations. Hard is the Good when we co-exist to love. Hard is the Good when we make sure our posterity knows that earth is a place we can learn, live and play. Hard is the Good when technologies converge to bridge language barrier and connect people. Hard is the Good when laws are created to make us good. Hard is the Good when laws are enforced justly. Hard is the Good when Lady justice is not only blind-folded but also weighs in on the facts and claims. Hard is the Good when the daughter of Dike is aided by the goddess of Justice, Themis, to use the power of Reason and Justice (double-edged sword) to wield either for or against any party. Hard is the Good when we accept our sins and allow justice to be served.


Hard is the Good when we fight the good fight. How hard is your life?